Title says it all.
5. I have no job. I look for work everyday, I apply for work everyday. Still nothing. Fast food won't even hire me.
4. My father is dead. Not only is he dead, but his other two sons are kicking their bullshit into overdrive.
3. Lack of money. This is tied to the lack of employment.
2. A realization that life never really gets any better. Childhood was hell. Adolescence was hell. Adulthood was hell. Guess what middle age is like.
1. A lack of options and hope.